Peter, Your going through a really difficult time and we do really care. I suggest you give us regular updates, so we know how your doing and how more specifically to pray. I believe JoeJerk tempts you or me to be embarrassed by my own weaknesses, that everyone else has their act together more than I do, that I'm a burden to others. That is all a lie from Hell! We care. Keep us informed. Jesus loves you so much and He loves to see us pick up your load and help you to carry it! Where two or three are gathered in my name, there I am in the midst of them! Praise God for MOG that brings us all together!