Well back to work Saturday night! ....and after three weeks off work I'm actually looking forward to it. I was at mass during the week and met a friend who was on crutches and gave me the phone number of a physio. I got an appointment with him for the next day, he discovered I had a sprained shoulder joint and computer cramp on my neck and fixed them right away. So thank you for you prayers! These three weeks have been a time of huge grace. One evening as I was walking a got this huge hunger for the Eucharist, for God I sometimes get at evening time (having received communion in the morning). Psalm 42:1-6 1 As a deer longs for flowing streams, so my soul longs for you, O God. 2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and behold the face of God? 3 My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me continually, "Where is your God?" 4 These things I remember, as I pour out my soul: how I went with the throng, and led them in procession to the house of God, with glad shouts and songs of thanksgiving, a multitude keeping festival. 5 Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my help 6 and my God. My soul is cast down within me; therefore I remember you from the land of Jordan and of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. But on this occasion the Lord showed me that my main problem was that I was not 'home'. That I needed to meditate on the Lord, to control them so that I was always thinking about God and the things of God. Certainly I was praying constantly but I was letting my thoughts wander. I needed to put all things under the Feet of Christ, even my thoughts. Ephesians 1:22 Spiritual Wisdom …21far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age, but also in the one to come. 22And God put everything under His feet and made Him head over everything for the church, 23which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all.… St Francis De Sales defines Meditation as placing ones mind on thoughts of God so that we might turn into the image of God. I was a little afraid at first of this being stressful and full of scruples, but the idea God gave me of coming home made it a lot more attractive and..well.. homely. It has been such a huge, huge source of joy and peace. Why does God give these graces at a certain time and not at others? Such a huge amount of physical and spiritual healing..I have just no idea. But He has and did. Thank you Jesus for reminding me to Mediate, to give my whole self back to you. Thank you so much for your prayers. I feel like I could fight dragons!
Isn' t it truly wonderful how God grants us these huge waves of grace, of interior conversion sometimes from right out of nowhere? The Spiritual Life is such an adventure. Never boring!!
