Peter, are you seeing a good, wise priest about all this and taking his advice and direction? Maybe one that is good at Spiritual Warfare. My own priest was an exorcist which was a real blessing. Anyway more prayers tonight.
I had a dream last night that I was a Franciscan priest and felt great joy in the dream at being so. Perhaps I have a future vocation.
"Feeling" is the key word. Feeling is emotional not fact based. Do NOT give in to these feelings. And as Padraig said find a good priest.
I could really use some prayers for my Mother. I think she is under diabolical attack. She has improved greatly over the last two years, to the point where her kidneys are actually healing/improving. It was amazing to behold, but unfortunately she had a set back with an infection. So she had to go through a round of antibiotics. We kept her regimen going but she became dehydrated again and her intestines are backed up. So all she needs to recover is some IV fluid and to have a bunch of bowel movements. Very simple stuff. However she has decided that she does not want to carry on living any longer and doesn't want any more therapies. I personally don't understand it at all. As well, there are weird things happening. Yesterday she got mad at me at an inopportune time, while I was bringing her into the house with an IV in her arm. Out of anger she decided not to hold my hand, fell to the ground and the plastic IV tube bent in her arm. So I had to take it out. If she continued to receive the IV, she would have felt a lot better today. I could have taken her to the clinic today to get another IV, not a big deal, but she said she doesn't want to go. There have been several instances where if she just did her therapies she would be ok. But each time she gets angry and accuses me of stuff that isn't true. Then I had Padre come to the house to talk to my Mother, letting him know the situation. He gave my mother the sacrament of the sick. But also walked out of the room frustrated with her, telling me that she needs to see a doctor immediately. Of course I know this, but she continues to be immovable. Also, Padre got mad at me telling me that I need to force her to get help. I can't exactly force my Mother to get therapy if she wont accept it. So many dilemmas. I told her that Jesus fell three times, that she needs to pick up her cross and keep going, this is how the cross works. I told her that life is a gift and we can't take it at our pleasure, that this is the opposite of the nature of Christ. We have to give ourselves away not take ourselves away. Thank you for your prayers. I wouldn't ask, but the situation is critical. Also, Padre blessed me before he left with a prayer that the Holy Spirit would move through me, to convince my Mother to live. So I have been on fire and not sad at all. It is rather remarkable.
From what I have seen and heard in the hospice and elsewhere the devil if very often given very great freedom in testing and trying souls as death approachs . So we pray in the Hail Mary all the time , 'Pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death'. Praying today. (I think if it was me I would be reaching for the Sacramentals, especially Holy Water).
I have Holy Water in a spray mister that I used yesterday. I will go over her room again. I should also mention my Mother had offered her self up previously as a victim soul.
I always love that the devil is on a tight leash. He can only do what God permits. Ephesians 1:22-23 22 And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, 23 which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.
Saying a prayer right now for you and your mother. Not feeling well can cause impatience. I know that from experience. you are a wonderful son IMHO.
This is exactly it. Previously, my Mother should have died several times. She did not die and her doctor was astounded. However, she suffers. She has had demonic attacks before. This time though the darkness seems to have a hold on her, for how long and how far I don't know. So it isn't that her body is failing her, but her spirit.
Thank you, God prepared the way. Perhaps in the future I will tell more about my story. I honestly don't think my Mother is going to go like this. Padre once asked my Mother if she had received permission from the Bishop to do what she did. My Mother never asked permission from the Bishop to offer herself as a victim soul. But I think God accepted the offer. I don't like to talk about this too much, because honestly don't know what to think about it myself.
This is quite common. The Darkness before the Light. A preparation for the Resurrection. Matthew 27:46 And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” that is to say, “My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me?”
