Offering up Mass and prayers this evening and tonight. I so wish I could do more. I don't suppose you know a really , really holy priest or nun someone with a real reputation for being a saint you could go and see? Even Eddy Stone? Or what about a trip to Medugorje?
It’s just that the confession is atrocious. It’s absolutely shameful. There are sins that should have killed us right then. Many people prefer never to confess them and live as if they never happened... but that’s very counterproductive. As I told you, I lived thru that purification for months, and I was only able to do it thru God’s intercession. It’s just that if we don’t do it, there’s no way out. There’s nothing else. That is the only door that leads to the Truth. The other doors lead nowhere. I remember that when I went to confession, the first sin I confessed was the worst one. Sometimes it seemed to me that it wasn’t me saying that, but that it had slipped out of my mouth by mistake, and a cold sweat ran down my forehead. On the way to the confessional in my car, I begged the Lord not to make me remember any other sins, because the day before I had been at peace with a clear conscience, but at dawn everything started all over again. I thot it would never end. There were thousands of them. Now, sometimes I go over them when they come to mind, and I think I’ve confessed them all, but then some very distant one pops up that I confess. Once I’ve confessed, the pain continues, but now I can hand it over to God because. I entrust the future to Providence and the past to Mercy. I live only in the present in His presence. God likes us to hand over our sins to Him because that’s what defines us. We are clay, and we can never believe ourselves worthy or safe from falling. If we do not sin now, it is only by His grace. It is the Holy Spirit. And if you don’t sin now, it’s because the Holy Spirit is with you. If you keep falling into the same sins, reread this post from the beginning.
A big mistake when confessing is trying to justify our actions, downplay them, or absolve ourselves of blame. My recommendation is a raw confession. I have no justification whatsoever, and even tho it may seem like it wasn’t such a bad sin, you should try to take full responsibility. It’s the only way to leave the confessional with a clear conscience. For that, you have to arrive at church a little early and ask the Virgin that we may say it well and hold nothing back.
What about Lough Derg? I have heard a lot of good come out of this place. https://ewtn.co.uk/article-barefoot...turning-to-irelands-most-grueling-pilgrimage/
Thanks be to God the suffering seems to be easing off. Suffered a terrible attack earlier but feeling better now. Thanks for the prayers!
Msgr Rosetti is having a Halloween Holy Hour here - https://www.youtube.com/live/zdHOPTd4r2M And if you wish, walk through the Holy Doors of the Vatican with him for a Jubilee Grace! (in case you missed it) here - https://www.youtube.com/shorts/d2UZimPMr98 We've got you Sanctus!
Attak is the right word. Try repeating I am under the Blood of Jesus Christ over and over. Because you are under His Blood. And you are consecrated to Our Mother. So a repeating prayer to her works too.
Doing better today thank God. That was a terrible experience yesterday. I hope God has mercy on me and it doesn't come back.
How did you get over it? I mean, I know it is all by grace. But were you praying? did you go for a walk/drive?
I was praying for you last night. I will offer up Mass today. It seems such a huge pity that you do not know exactly what is causing all this for if you knew the cause you would more easily find a permanent cure. What a blessing a good Spiritual Director would be in this matter if you could find one.
I read a story about a very saintly nun in France centuries ago who was tortured by the most awful feelings that God had not forgiven her sins and that she was bound for hell. This torture went on for many,many years and no matter how she tried to shake this awful feeling and no matter what folks said to her, the terrible feeling stayed. Finally one day Jesus appeared to her and she took the opportunity to ask Him if her sins were forgiven. Jesus asked her what sins did she mean and when she told Him Jesus said He had no idea what she was talking about as He had no memory of them. It turned out she had confessed them and Jesus said if a soul tells their sins in confession he forgets them all. That they are not only forgiven but forgotten. I believe that what is happening to you is the same demonic oppression and I am praying that it stops/
