Up it. The worse the devil punches you with this nonsense punch him back. More and more and more rosaries.
You have experienced such struggles before. God did not fail you then, nor will He do so now. Trust in Him and receive Him this week at the Corpus Christi celebration. As the Lord says through Jeremiah: I have loved you with an everlasting love and am constant in my affection for you. Speak God's truth to your soul and reject any self-condemnation! We're praying with you, Peter!
Praying now, I wish I could do more. I found in the past reading the volumes of Padre Pio's spiritual writings a big help. He suffered so much and so constantly but just ploughed away step by bloody step. Yet in all this great,great suffering , great joy. His fellow Friars described him as the happiest man in the world. I read a lovely story about Padre Pio just this morning. An American man had a very sick daughter and was doing a pilgrimage to Europe. He had just visited Fatima were he prayed for his daughter. He visited Padre Pio whom he had never met before. But before he could ask Padre PIo that saint said that Our of Fatima had already heard his prayer and that his daughter would get better.
My sister Marie is having a pacemaker put in this morning right now. Operation should be done by 10am EST. Please say a prayer for her if you could, that all goes well. Thank you..