I think I would continue to see another priest and continue until they drive those feelings from you. I prayed at Adoration today for help for this for you.
PSALM 25 1 Unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul. 2 O my God, I trust in thee: let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me. 3 Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed: let them be ashamed which transgress without cause. 4 Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths. 5 Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day. 6 Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old. 7 Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness' sake, O LORD. 8 Good and upright is the LORD: therefore will he teach sinners in the way. 9 The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way. 10 All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies. 11 For thy name's sake, O LORD, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great. 12 What man is he that feareth the LORD? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose. 13 His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth. 14 The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant. 15 Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net. 16 Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted. 17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses. 18 Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins. 19 Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred. 20 O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee. 21 Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee. 22 Redeem Israel, O God, out of all his troubles.
Peter the same thing happened to me in Medjugordje last summer. Keep praying the Rosary, and go to Adoration. It’s the evil one who is attacking you. He’s very angry you are in Medjugordje. Offer up your suffering to those who need salvation. I will be praying for you.
There is always something telling me that I am a bad person too. I must say this to a priest here. There is also something telling me I am damned which is very unpleasant. I will try to offer such suffering up for souls. The feeling of being damned is horrible I hope it is just a temptation
ditto, Sanctus, you have the prayers of many of us on the forum Tell all to the priest who is In Persona Christi
I hope something can help me because I am suffering alot. I don't know how to keep going. I hope good comes from all this suffering. I must perservere even though things seem difficult
This is my first post on here, so forgive me if I don't know what I'm doing. I'm also young so I don't know if I'm that great on offering insight. Anyways, Sanctus, I just wanted to say I struggle with the same intrusive thoughts you do on a daily basis. I constantly berate myself to the point of it making me physically ill. The thought I'm a terrible and malicious person deep down never fails to surface. I feel like I should be doing more to please God, but I feel couped up in my apartment slaving away at work, homework, and hiding in my bedroom trying to avoid the miserable secular world around me. I'll get up in the morning have my day planned out and then, that demonic resistance consumes me. I'll lay in my bed and start to doubt myself. Those cringe memories from my past torment me and my day is wasted. Don't give into those feelings. I know it's hard but life is temporary. Through every struggle you have and you turn to God, I believe he is admiring the admittance of your struggles and asking others for help. Today is seriously the most widespread warfare ever witnessed across the planet. Not in the tangible sense but in the spiritual sense. There is a war people are not aware of and that is the most dangerous war of all. Not being able to pinpoint the enemy. But we know it is Satan and his army of demons. Satan has caused division among the races, division among men and women, and most shockingly has turned man against himself. Leading to this strange, confused, and freighting world. Many Christians say you are protected from the devil's influence if you just turn to God, but I don't necessarily believe that to be true. When you find salvation in the Lord, the Devil is pissed. He will do anything to lead you back into temptation and misery. His goal is to seek the ruin of souls and round up as many as possible to laugh in God's face. Unless we make it to heaven, we are in the Devil's playground. Not only is Hell his playground but the world is too. God allows him admittance into our world. Except in this world -- in the test of life -- there is hope. You can either choose God or the Devil. God admires suffering and the surrendering of yourself to him. Never stop attending mass, confession, or communion. Hopefully, taking part in these sacraments strengthens your faith and you are better able to defend your beliefs. Hang in there. Know I am struggling with you. Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To you do we cry, poor banished children of Eve. To you do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears Turn then, most gracious advocate, your eyes of mercy toward us, and after this exile show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary. Pray for us O Holy Mother of God, That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil; May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; And do thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all evil spirits who wander about the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.
Peter I recommend that you pray Psalm 51 three times: before and after confession, and also before the beginning of Holy Mass, and meditate mainly on your teaching that God does not despise a contrite and humbled heart. Offer your repentant and humbled heart as a sacrifice of praise to God, and thank him for the existence of the sacraments that reconcile us to God.
