I am on pain killers at the moment. In fact I tried to taper off them but now find I can't, that I am addicted to them or at least to the opioids. My surgery is in a week and I was told that I will be given a self afministered morphine pump after the operation. So I expect suffering incoming. But I contemplate the unimaginable sufferings of Jesus and the martyrs. Jesus' sufferings during His passion were unimaginable. No pain killers or morphine there. No wonder His sweat turned to blood in the Garden of Getsemane. But if His sufferings were not enough as He was nailed to the Cross, just imagine the pain He experienced when the Cross was raised vertical. And then try to imagine being left in that state for 3 hours. If one enters into it one can understand how He cried out, "my God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me!" Truely, this Man was the Son of God, as the Roman Centurion cried out. Many of the Saints have pointed out how beneficial for the spiritual life is the meditation on the Passion and death of Jesus, the Redeemer. Heavenly Father, by the merits of the Passion and death of Jesus, Your beloved Son, have mercy on us and on the whole world.
Prayer s for you and offering up Mass today. You seem in a wonderful Spiritual place in Christian Resignation. I suppose time enough to get off the dope when the crisis is over. Yes the Cross is at the center of everything. I hold me little brass cross in my hands all night for comfort and protection, it is my little teddy bear. I was talking to a saintly Irish hermit priest one time who told me he had visited a famous Abbot in France. I asked the hermit what he thought of the guy to which he answered, 'He is a saint!' I asked him how he know the Abbot was a saint and he said the abbot had a cross in his hands which he constantly touched and looked at . That's how he knew.
I have screws in my back ...and rebuilt neck. I never thought I could taper off, but with God's help, I did. When the time was right. I will put you in all my prayers for a successful operation. But please don't worry about that part, one thing at a time. I had the morphine thing that I controlled after my last operation, but I found the pain after was not much worse than I endured before the operation. Pray, hope and don't worry, !
My daughter's 2nd death Anniversary is tomorrow.. can you please send up a prayer for her soul and for her children..thank you
Prayers for you all. I always sleep with my rosary usually around my hand but always as close as under my pillow. Whenever I wake, I pray
A Priest gave me a small bottle of Holy Water recently and have been carrying it around with me and find it very helpful.
Thanks HeavenlyHosts and Agnes. Will pray for your daughter and her children and for you. Tomorrow I pray you are consoled. I mean today actually ...
I am very tired with all the suffering and trials but trying to keep going. Sometimes it doesn't feel like a loving God at all but I'm trying my best.
