Hi, I know I have posted that I had an apparition in 1997, and since then I have had a Peace so profound that it almost feels like a caress inside. Sometimes I wonder how people survive who do not have Jesus peace, as I used to suffer from so much anxiety over everything. I see this in so many people who are on drugs to help this nowadays, and I remember myself before conversion. The ONLY thing that seems to take away the peace is if I am angry and let myself CONTINUE to be angry. I start to feel like before and it is so scary I immediately beg pardon from Jesus and He gives me His peace back. I'm not too worried, because at the time of the apparition I begged Him not to take the peace away from me again, and He said "I do not give as the world gives" so I know it is a gift. Does anyone else experience this peace so profound you can "feel" it? And if so, when did you notice that you received it? Love to hear everyone's experiences with this!
It reminds me of a rubber band. At first when you loose your cool it takes a while to regain it. But over the years the rubber band gets stronger and stronger causing a regaining of peace quicker and quicker.
I've maybe experienced this inner peace you describe for short durations...like 24 hours. I lose all peace when I do not carry my cross and that is when my cross gets bigger. I gain peace when I carry it. When I have a real good prayer day, I experience the peace. But, my life situation is a worrisome and anxious one, so it's hard to sustain that peace for more than 24 hours. I've had a lot more peace since my consecration to Mary. In the Medj messages, Our Lady often talks about the peace of her son that we receive when we turn our lives over to him and live her messages. I hope someday to really know what that peace feels like. I know I need to get much better at fasting, and that is the "stone" I'm focused on now...make it a regular part of my week...that will probably increase my inner peace.
I have been praying about this gift of inner peace. Like PS I too struggle so I have asked for it in prayer. We will all need this gift when things fall apart and persecution comes.
