Satan is tempting you to think like this, its all a complete lie to lead you to despair. Turn to God and He will forgive you in an instant. Even though yours sins be red as Scarlet you will be white as snow. Prayers.
I go every two weeks. I used to go once a month but the graces of the sacrament are so powerful I need them in these challenging days.
Over my lifetime there have been times of Depression and anxiety as well as times when I truly feel that God does not want me due to my pride and my sins. I find these happen most when I’m away from confession. I think those are the times that the devil looks at me with glee and uses his wiles and my emotions to pull me further away from God. There is a scene in the movie of Ignatius of Loyola at the end of his conversion he sees the child Jesus lean into his ear and says “Remember I loved you first!” No one loves or forgives like our Lord!
I don't want to ignore your question but I don't want go into it here. It's between me and the priest. The only reason I haven't been is because my husband is afraid of Covid for me and I won't be considered vaccinated until Oct. I'm not despairing but that date can't come soon enough. I'll keep you in my prayers.
