I cannot pray at the moment. All I can do is cry. Great heavy sobs from the depths of my soul. I have some practical difficulties - money shortage until payday, a car crash yesterday that was my fault and so will cost me heavily.. a week of very little sleep, worries about my eldest child - but it is not these that are crushing me. I feel no consolation, just desolation. I hear the accuser playing with my mind and telling me I am a dreadful person. I do not want to pray - as soon as I start, i begin to think what a waste of time it is. I cry out in my absolute nothingness and in return, I get nothing back, but I have no choice except stay. I can do nothing right and I am losing hope. This is very frightening and so, I ask any one who can, to please pray for me. Consolation is all I need. I do not understand what is going on, i just believe it will pass.
Oh Bella, I know we've all been there! Don't lose hope please! I will pray my Rosary and Divine Mercy Chaplet for you today. Sometimes I just grab my bible, say "Lord speak to me" and open it up, and sure enough, something that really helps me pops up. Just think...a year from now you won't even remember this awful week! It's holy week, so you have some suffering to offer up and bear with Jesus in the Garden right now. He was so upset He cried tears of blood. I love St Teresa's words: "This too shall pass!" but I know right now all you feel is the pain. We'll all support you with prayer...hang in there!!
Bella, this is true, I have been there too, feeling hopeless, worthless, and asking God just how much more can one take ! My scapular has helped me the most, I feel grounded, give it to God..all of it. Keep praying.
Ebay has scapulars and all ..very affordable 1.98 for scapulars and the others can be found in a good price range vs the Catholic stores...this I found out afterthemath..although I want to keep our only CAtholic store open for business..but sometimes there isn't enough mad money.
If you can't pray, just have a chat with Sr. Josefa Menendez and she will do the praying for you to the Sacred Heart. She has got me out of a few awkward situations. In fact I can't recall her ever letting me down. She's a sweetie. View attachment 911
Praying for you, Bella. The name Jesus is a powerful prayer all by itself. Just try to keep saying Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. He understands everything.
Thank-you all of you. The advice and prayer has been very helpful. I actually already feel some hope trying to struggle out of the darkness and so I will thank God for this and try to give it all over to Him - I think this is what is happening - I am not actually wanting to hand over the mess that I have created, to God, instead wanting to keep it for some reason. Bless you, friends - you have been a lifeline for me this bleak afternoon.
I believe in day, Even when all is night, I believe in springtime, Even in the winters snow, I believe in love, Even when hate is all around, I believe in heaven even on this Earth below. De Profundis Out of the depths I cry to You, O Lord; Lord, hear my voice. Let Your ears be attentive to my voice in supplication. If You, O Lord, mark iniquities, Lord, who can stand? But with You is forgiveness, that You may be revered. I trust in the Lord; my soul trusts in His word. My soul waits for the Lord more than sentinels wait for the dawn. More than sentinels wait for the dawn, let Israel wait for the Lord, For with the Lord is kindness and with Him is I will be praying constantly for you, Bella. Please let me know when things get back to normal so I can ease up.
The light has shone in the darkness, and yet, the darkness has not overcome it. John 1:5. T'is the guy 'neath the stairs that taunts you Bella! My Rosary is being said now for you...
Allyd, I prayed for you in the Mass this morning and asked God to fill you with His peace and to give you a great awareness of this peace. I also asked for your home to be filled with angels. I shall keep praying
hang in there. I've been crushed by crosses while in the dry, dark desert too. it would be great if you could find adoration somewhere right now. there were times I could not pray, but just sat in front of our Lord saying...this is all I got for you today...just my presence...and I'm here because I need You and your grace to help me carry this cross and solve my problems...I'm clinging to you Jesus...I'm clinging to you... praying for you...
Sometimes it is very difficult to pray formal prayers, but remember that your sobs, groans and sighs to the Lord are prayers too. Even if all you can manage is whining and complaining to Him that He's taking too long and you feel like He doesn't seem care--keep on talking to Him. He expects that from time to time. He's your Father and He wants to be included in your life even when you're struggling--especially in these days--when times are tough.
St Joseph, St Ann, St James, St Timothy, St Christopher, St Faustina, Sister Josepha Mendez, St Mary Margaret, St John Bosco, St Anthony, Abraham, Moses and Jacob the Patriarchs, Adam and Eve our first parents...We pray your intercession for Bella...for the gift of peace and all that she may need...in Jesus's name...Amen
