I don't want to butt into Aviso's thread regarding healings etc. I thought I'd post here about something that has been going on in my life. In 2012 I went to Rome and Ukraine with my spiritual Father Bishop Roman Danylak. We traveled all over Ukraine visiting visionaries, priests and apparition sites. We went to Josyp Terelya’s hometown and to his priest’s home for dinner. We saw the shrine that was being started for his memorial. We went to Hrushiv to the Church where he had had many apparitions of our Lady dressed in black. Many miracles had happened there and I was especially close to Josyp since his spiritual director was also Bishop Danylak. I had asked Bishop if he would pray for Josyp to be my special intercessor. He did this and anointed me with chrism and kissed me on the cheek and said, “Now, Josyp will live with you and through you!” On my trip I was carrying my c-pap machine which had to have a special plug for the European outlets. It was more important to me than my passport because without it my throat would close up and swell, my limbs would go to sleep and tingle and shake uncontrollably. It was a horrible sleepless experience without it. I took the opportunity to pray to Josyp for a miracle to be healed, after 14 years with this machine traveling with me everywhere and separate beds with my husband and I because of this silly machine; I was anxious to storm heaven! Two nights later, traveling yet to another house to sleep on a couch, I realized I had left my attachment plug at the last house and my American plug didn’t fit. I sat on the couch and cried. I was scared my throat would swell up in the middle of Ukraine! I heard our Lord’s voice say, “My daughter, you are healed.” Then I started arguing with our Lord! “But, you don’t understand Lord, my throat will swell up and…” He said again, “My daughter you are healed.” I took a deep breath and began crying harder and thanked God for his unending blessings. He knew I was thinking in the back of my mind of my fears. I slept for the first time that night without my c-pap and I woke up perfectly rested and amazed. I got home and told my family that I had not only been healed of sleep apnea but I also liked eggs now! I had not eaten an egg since I was 5 years old. I was notoriously the odd ball at breakfasts. I had not eaten any eggs in Ukraine for me to have changed my mind, but the thought came to me on the plane home that I was hungry for eggs. It was crazy since I didn’t even like the smell of them! My family was more amazed at that than the healing of sleep apnea… I have gone two years without my c-pap. I gave it away to someone in need of one who did not have the funds to buy one. I was perfectly content until Lent came this year. I made the mistake of praying to our good Lord to be humbled. I have to have surgery within a couple of months and they still have on my records that I have sleep apnea. The doctor, even after hearing my story and writing it in my records asked me to go get checked for sleep apnea and get a sleep study done before surgery. I said okay. I even told our Lord it was okay if I still had it, that I would offer it up and still believe I had been healed, because up to that point I didn’t have any symptoms of sleep apnea. Not outwardly. Well, lo and behold, I have it. I had to get a machine and everything. Now my husband has it too. LOL. I cried in the dark. I asked the Lord why. I finally asked a friend who is a third order Carmelite and she said, “Oh NO! YOU never pray to be humbled!! You WILL BE! You pray for HIS will to be done!” DUH. So, I have prayed to Josyp and asked his intercession on this. I have accepted without to much complaining. But the laughs and the jeers and the jokes are incredibly hurtful and shameful from non believers within my family and friends. I have to say it has been painful and gut wrenching but I’ve grown. Its been an ‘aha’ moment in my life. I still like eggs, which is funny. I still believe I was healed for two years. So, if I can be an example to anyone about getting humbled, let it be done.
MS7, I'll hold you in prayer. May Our Lady and Josyp make a wonderful, dynamic duo on behalf of you and your family! Many moons ago before I dated Geralyn, I was praying with my previous girlfriend while we were holding hands. At one point, I started to pray for humility and Elaine pulled her hands away saying, "That's not for me!" Smart girl! Safe in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary!
MS7, I want to say that your healing is amazing but if anyone could do it, it would be God. I have wanted to ask to get humbled but feel so scared. Often times I feel like I'm happy i made it through the day. I also say at the end of the day, "If it is my time to go Lord, I'll be happy to go to you". I almost think that I would rather go than to be humbled any more than I think I am. AND in the morning I say, Lord, give me strength to make it through this day". I feel so needy of God's good graces.
I I often feel like the neediest person on earth! Uggg. That is a horrible feeling in the light of the people of the world, but in the light of Christ it is the most wonderful feeling! I feel like a 3 yr. old running to Him! Its ok. All is ok. I'm in His arms. I hide my face in his chest. Its the safest place to be. My prayer every day is that my will be fused with His, and that He get me to heaven however he deems fit. That way, I don't have a choice, for if I did, I would fail. My job is to go forward and say yes everyday.
I feel the Lord gives suffering to those He truly loves in a special way- creatures He trusts enough to share in his Passion, to help ease His own pain at the ingratitude and sin of souls, those that are strong enough without realizing it, to bear the burden of helping to save souls. Perhaps He took away your suffering briefly to show you this- that you are a special soul to Him, and that He is truly with you walking on your road to Calvary as you are with Him. Prayers.
Someone I actually know went through a terrible trauma. I can't even say the word. I sent them this quote. The thing is, I don't know where they are in their faith, I hope Jesus and Our Lady's words helped. excerpt from a message to: Mariamante Thursday, June 11, 1987 (3:00 - 3:40 pm) Jesus: Remember, My yoke is gently and My burden is light. If you are united to Me, it (your cross) will become your joy. My mother wishes to speak to you. Blessed Mother: My Son gives crosses ONLY to those who He knows can carry them. See the mercy of your God ~ that He allows that you may suffer in THE REDEMPTION OF SOULS while making it your joy. You will understand this better soon and it may not be in the way in which you expect it, but I say to you, there will be rejoicing in Heaven among the Angels and Saints for those who willingly aid in the redemption of souls. Their reward will be great in Heaven and their joy will have no end. I your mother have said it and I promise this to you this day that you will be counted among the privileged who suffer as my Son, Your Creator did. pg. 86 Apostolate of Holy Motherhood
This is such a mystery even to many believers. To be able to carry any cross is a great grace. MS7 - you are an inspiration. Surrender all to Him who has the power to heal and save.
