I don't know why but for some reason I just snapped at my mother a few minutes ago, I just got angry and just couldn't hold it in; I'm now really angry at myself over it. I'm struggling with hope, I've mentioned before that it's really difficult to go to confession here, I really want to go this January but I don't know if I'll be able to. I'm really struggling with things, and am really frustrated; I don't know how well my efforts to evangelize my family have gone, I do know that I have done less than I would have liked to. I really hope than when I get back to my place I can do things better; I plan on cleaning things up, and then contacting my local pro-life group and getting more involved in whatever resistance movement there is here, (things do sound more optimistic in this area, from what I've heard) maybe I'll finally find my job and future spouse. Please pray that I gain better hope, and overcome this anger that I'm still struggling with.