Me too. Maybe it’s Covid living or the current grave messages from Heaven. For the last few weeks, I wake up thinking I am not close to God. I am not going to Heaven. It is an anxiety I have never felt before in now twenty two years since returning, my conversion. Comes repeatedly to my mind during the day. It is awful! I keep on with as we all do, praying my daily prayers and I pray, ask for a spiritual communion. I can’t tell my family, I am the supposed rock for the Faith among my loved ones.