thanks everyone for your continued posts here, as it helps me to shake this latest disappointment in the job search off. SteveD, I started the novena to St. Joe last Wednesday, so I'm almost done. I prayed to him for about a month in March a year ago. Perhaps the time is right for him to answer my prayers now. But I said it with as much confidence and specificity as I could!! Jayne, your novena will be right after I finish the St. Joe one! GrimiSocks, I'm still praying for you! MCalling - thanks for the post and it was great to hear from you again. I'm glad things are going so well for you and you are really finding yourself. Oh, and to be blessed with locutions from God...how wonderful in an earth shattering way that is!! I've had a few (although never with a vision). I think we will all have such experiences as times get tougher and events start to spiral on us. I will also pray for your friend Melanie, that she finds something soon. In terms of your questions...I have never been married and have no kids. So, I'm all on my own regarding this. so as far as I can tell, my vocation is to be single, which also means I have to work to support myself. There is no one in my family who has money to give me, I must support myself. In terms of moving on from what I have done for a living and trying something new...that's actually what I have been doing for the past 6 months or so. I hadn't submitted a resume for the line of work I had been doing for quite some time when this call came out of the blue. So, I will continue to look for a new career elsewhere and have asked God to shine a spotlight on the path He wants me to go, since right now it's tough to tell where I should focus. but I'm open to my old career, a new career...whatever God has in mind for me to do. But I do need for Him to reveal this to me in some, way, shape or form. I've even been so bold as to tell Jesus in adoration the ball is in His court...He needs to tell me which direction to go...a direction that will be His will for me. This job was not His will for me so I need Him to reveal to me which direction He wants me to go. that's when I really wish I had a locution like you and He'd just tell me! As far as my thoughts being too narrow in what I felt God was revealing to me, I believe you are absolutely correct. God's view is big-picture and right now I can't even see beyond the hand in front of my face. After removing all the negative thoughts I had about God waiting for me to be perfect (thanks Mario!), your post, and posts about conversion from Garabandal & Padraig in other threads, I've prayed more about what He was trying to reveal to me about abandonment, self-denial, etc., and I really think that this cross is about my conversion. For the longest time I denied I had been called to be an apostle for these times, and I procrastinated in taking my conversion seriously. So now, I think I'm getting a crash course in conversion (meaning the 5 stones of Medj) and learning to trust God before this time of grace runs out. But I did this to myself...this is the bed I made. My attitude was when the time got closer and the signs were more prominent, I would just step up my prayer life, go to confession more, etc. I thought it would be that easy. But true conversion is very, very hard and I understand now why it is said in Medj not to wait for the sign to convert and convert now. Those who wait for the sign will not have time to fully convert, as conversion is not easy. I am finding that out right now!