Hi garabandal. I have been doing some courses over the past number of years but never any employment. I've always wanted to work but it never materialised. Perhaps its Gods will at the moment.
Thanks Sanctus - the reason I asked (apart from the fact I am praying a lot for you) is that as long as the 'dark night' does not prevent you from living a normal life studying etc then that for me is a good sign. When I went through the dark night, although it was difficult, I was still able to do my teaching job (although sometimes exhausted as it interferred with my night sleep sometimes). No words are ever able to give comfort to those experiencing the dark night - hold on to the fact that one day you will look back (and almost) forget the experience - that is once you are through the other side. God Bless and keep saying the rosary meditating on the mysteries - that is so important to do.
Peter just today Fr Mark Goring posted on you tube a powerful post " three prayers that burn the demons "He speaks of all these things you have talked of. Please find it and listen to it.
I have been using Twitter a lot recently and have been appalled at some of the posts from ordinary fellow Catholics , often in desperate sometimes horrendous situations, really begging for prayers. I had no idea how much suffering is our there. But I comfort myself that prayer asked for is prayer answered. It certainly teaches me to count my blessings.
Still in a place of darkness and feeling God is missing. I keep telling God I want to help others and do his will.
Can you get to Church to be with Our Lord in the Eucharist? I am so sorry for your deep waters Sanctus. Praying right now for help for you.
Praying. Sanctus can you rebuke the spirit of darkness, despair in the name of Jesus Christ. The Name that is above all names. I will send a prayer later. I do think you should organise a weekly counseling session. If you can get a Catholic counsellor or spiritual director it is best. But if not there are many good 'ordinary' counsellors. 50 to 60 minutes a week of talking about some practical problems can be very helpful. Try to do a helpful deed or work of mercy for another person.
I'm struggling with terrible darkness. I dont know why I hope this passes. I keep telling Jesus that I love Him and Mary. I dont feel Our Ladys presence either.
A job is a great distraction to how we feel. It seems like it carries a person away from every care and concern. Maybe this month, you could apply for a few jobs and see what comes up. I pray you do, it will mean all the difference in the world. God bless you.
