Life is cruel

Discussion in 'Spirit Daily and Spirit Digest' started by Padrepiofan, Dec 16, 2021.

  1. Padrepiofan

    Padrepiofan Angels

    I feel so horrible .

    Life is so cruel.

    Growing up with undiagnosed autism has been the worst. It had affected me jn every possible way, mentally, emotionally , physically, academically in my relationships with people. I didnt get a diagnosis till I was 32 and family members still can't accept it.
    I got married to someone who took advantage of me sexually and now I get abuse off my parents in law who make out ok stupid and a nutjob (havent told them my diagnosis).God has now rejected me as I've committed mortal sin and didn't make it into the " gentiles"
    My life has been nothing but suffering and now I'm on my way to hell.
     
  2. Seagrace

    Seagrace Archangels

    I am sending you a big hug from miles away.
    We're all on the way to hell but the grace of God has saved us - you included, like it or not, autistic or not, mortal sin or not.
     




  3. Padrepiofan, please call on our Blessed Mother...
     
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  4. Jo M

    Jo M Powers

    God is merciful, and He will not reject you. I am sorry you have had to endure so much suffering in your life. There is no shame in being diagnosed with Autism. Pray for those who have abused you, they do not understand autism. I hope that you are getting counseling to repair the damage done to your self esteem and to help you to deal with the negative individuals in your life. Don’t despair, as Jason stated, ask Our Holy Mother for help. Pray the rosary.
     
  5. Mario

    Mario Powers

    Parable of the Prodigal Son

    11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them. 13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. 17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ 20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. 21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
     
  6. RoryRory

    RoryRory Perseverance

    Yes and I will pray for you today.
     
  7. sparrow

    sparrow Exitus ~ Reditus

    Keeping you in prayer. I have a 35 yr old son who is on the autism spectrum so i have some idea of what kind of pain you are in.. God is bigger than your sin. Can you go to confession? If not, say an act of contrition from the heart. God will forgive you! He is ALL merciful!
     
  8. Michael Pio

    Michael Pio Archangels

    I am sorry you are suffering so much. God loves you, He does not reject. You can return to Him and He will welcome you with open arms.
     
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  9. Katfalls

    Katfalls Powers

    You are going through the dark night of the soul. Do not lose hope and faith! You are not alone. Our oldest son has asbergers and our only grandchild is autistic. You are not on the way to hell! Trust in Jesus and his divine mercy, ask him about that. Life is not easy! And it's not fair, but we muddle through with the help of God. Have you watched, "The Chosen"? They portray Matthew as on the spectrum, I think you could relate. Please watch it . . .you don't have to shout to the world that you are autistic, many people are and don't know it. Autism only means that your struggle is a little harder than others. We all have our crosses to bear, offer it up. Keep the faith!
     
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  10. Mario

    Mario Powers

    You continue to be in my prayers, Padrepiofan. I am honest in saying I personally know no one with autism. It is interesting that I listened to an interview today, a man who found his way to God. Hopefully it will encourage you not to give up hope!

     
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  11. bflocatholic

    bflocatholic Powers

    I've got your back too Padrepiofan. Prayers going up for you during these difficulties.
     
  12. Andy3

    Andy3 Powers

    The confessional is made for mortal sin. When one has no mortal sin, then it is encouraged to go to confession to work on our venial ones and to possibly uncover other sins we may not be thinking of. Our venial sins are washed away at mass through holy water as well as when we say, "I confess...." Padrepio fan, you have very heavy, dark thoughts on the state of your soul. You are being extremely hard on yourself, and I urge you to be careful here. In the spirit of Padre Pio, who never sugar-coated things and spoke rather sharply and direct, get your you know what to confession and then leave it there. I would suggest sitting before the blessed sacrament as well and pour your heart and soul out to your loving Father and once again leave these thoughts on the state of your soul there. Only God is the judge, not us. Now buck up and go post haste and let your father forgive you and move on!!
     
  13. miker

    miker Powers

    Praying for you.
     
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  14. padraig

    padraig Powers

    If you are a Devotee of Padre Pio you are already in a very good place. I am sure he is following you around all over the place and tasking care of you 24/7 as he does with all his Spiritual Children.

    If people reject you well they rejected Christ before you. One time I tried make a list of the horrible things they said about him and the names they called Him it was endless.

    Don;t forget that the Devil will sieze the moment and call you all kind of names to make you feel down too.

    At this time of year I always like to reread Padre Pio's Christmas meditation. The best Christmas Meditation ever.

    https://catholicismpure.wordpress.com/2018/12/24/padre-pios-christmas-meditation/

    Padre Pio’s Christmas Meditation
    Posted on December 24, 2018 by mmvc61
    Appearing in volume four of the Italian-language edition of Padre Pio’s letters, this essay was taken from Padre Pio’s hand-written notebooks.

    Far into the night, at the coldest time of the year, in a chilly grotto, more suitable for a flock of beasts than for humans, the promised Messiah – Jesus – the Saviour of mankind, comes into the world in the fullness of time.

    There are none who clamour around Him: only an ox and an ass lending their warmth to the newborn infant; with a humble woman, and a poor and tired man, in adoration beside Him.

    Nothing can be heard except the sobs and whimpers of the infant God. And by means of His crying and weeping He offers to the Divine Justice the first ransom for our redemption.

    He had been expected for forty centuries; with longing sighs the ancient Fathers had implored his arrival. The sacred scriptures clearly prophesy the time and the place of His birth, and yet the world is silent and no one seems aware of the great event. Only some shepherds, who had been busy watching over their sheep in the meadows, come to visit Him. Heavenly visitors had alerted them to the wondrous event, inviting them to approach His cave.

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    So plentiful, O Christians, are the lessons that shine forth from the grotto of Bethlehem! Oh how our hearts should be on fire with love for the One who with such tenderness was made flesh for our sakes! Oh how we should burn with desire to lead the whole world to this lowly cave, refuge of the King of kings, greater than any worldly palace, because it is the throne and dwelling place of God! Let us ask this Divine child to clothe us with humility, because only by means of this virtue can we taste the fullness of this mystery of Divine tenderness.

    Glittering were the palaces of the proud Hebrews. Yet, the Light of the World did not appear in one of them. Ostentatious with worldly grandeur, swimming in gold and in delights, were the great ones of the Hebrew nation; filled with vain knowledge and pride were the priests of the sanctuary. In opposition to the true meaning of Divine revelation, they awaited an officious saviour, who would come into the world with human renown and power.

    But God, always ready to confound the wisdom of the world, shatters their plans. Contrary to the expectations of those lacking in Divine wisdom, He appears among us in the greatest abjection, renouncing even birth in Saint Joseph’s humble home, denying Himself a modest abode among relatives and friends in a city of Palestine. Refused lodging among men, He seeks refuge and comfort among mere animals, choosing their habitation as the place of his birth, allowing their breath to give warmth to His tender body. He permits simple and rustic shepherds to be the first to pay their respects to Him, after He Himself informed them, by means of His angels, of the wonderful mystery.

    Oh wisdom and power of God, we are constrained to exclaim – enraptured along with your Apostle – how incomprehensible are your judgments and unsearchable your ways! Poverty, humility, abjection, contempt, all surround the Word made flesh. But we, out of the darkness that envelops the incarnate Word, understand one thing, hear one voice, perceive one sublime truth: you have done everything out of love, you invite us to nothing else but love, speak of nothing except love, give us naught except proofs of love.

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    The heavenly babe suffers and cries in the crib so that for us suffering would be sweet, meritorious and accepted. He deprives Himself of everything, in order that we may learn from Him the renunciation of worldly goods and comforts. He is satisfied with humble and poor adorers, to encourage us to love poverty, and to prefer the company of the little and simple rather than the great ones of the world.

    This celestial child, all meekness and sweetness, wishes to impress in our hearts by His example these sublime virtues, so that from a world that is torn and devastated an era of peace and love may spring forth. Even from the moment of His birth He reveals to us our mission, which is to scorn that which the world loves and seeks.

    Oh let us prostrate ourselves before the manger, and along with the great Saint Jerome, who was enflamed with the love of the infant Jesus, let us offer Him all our hearts without reserve. Let us promise to follow the precepts which come to us from the grotto of Bethlehem, which teach us that everything here below is vanity of vanities, nothing but vanity.

    Translated by Frank M. Rega, December 2005.

    “Padre Pio da Pietrelcina: Epistolario IV,” Edizioni Padre Pio, San Giovanni Rotondo, 2002, pages 1007-1009.

     
  15. AED

    AED Powers

    LIKE!!!!!!!!!
     
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