Hi everyone, going through a very heavy dark night at the moment. Feeling abandoned by God and feel like I have lost it a bit also. Hope I'll be OK. Going through a very dark period. Fearing for sanity and salvation also. Prayers would be appreciated. Hope to get through this. Thank you and God bless!
I've been thinking here yesterday & today, I had an appointment for Confession yesterday. We talked for over an hour about different things. It was wonderful! After, I tried to go to Adoration to re dedicate my prayer of consecration. Since the code was changed, I knelt outside & read it. I had a great sense of being ready for the Illumination if it occurs this Fall. Today I heard a priest on catholic radio negate the Warning to a caller asking about it. Of course this left me disquiet. I realized this was a tiny victory for satan. Yes, we truly need to continue our daily prayers & all sacramentals! Absolutely frequent Confession. I have been trying for quarterly. I should go more. I don't know about you all, sometimes I feel very drawn to pour my Holy Water over my head and also drink some; a manifestation of being drenched in the mercy that is Jesus. Clearly I have a deep inner thirst for Him! It's a deep thirst no icy water can quench. Boy, that strikes me so profound! I pray you benefit from reading this. Perhaps some of you have experienced the same yearning. Hmm, that is the first I've shared that. I have felt this for many weeks.
Dear Lord please bind Satan and send him to the foot of the cross and do with him as you wish.Please send many angels and St. Michael the Archangel to help Sanctus. You will be prayed for tomorrow and everyday in my Rosaries and other prayers.
I do indeed thirst for Our Lord! Joan. Good sharing. Sanctus, Rory prayed the right prayer for you in this dark mood. Prayers for you.
A book comes to mind that might bring some equalibrium in times like this by Father Walter Ciszek titled With God in Russia.
Thanks everyone for the prayers. Seemed to be experiencing strong spiritual attacks of fear, worry etc. the past while but thankfully a Catholic man with a healing charism prayed the Saint Joseph terror of demons prayer with me over the phone. Have been reading it everyday day several times and have found it very helpful. Seem to be doing better since saying that prayer thankfully. Will post it up here soon if anyone else needs it and may find it helpful. The experience last night was dark and heavy but it seems to be in those moments that the greatest healing takes place. On the right road to recovery, thank God.
I'd be careful of shopping on the internet for , 'Spiritual Direction'..even on a forum like this which is pretty good. I'd be even more careful of things getting fixed over the phone. St Joe or no St Joe. We all have a temptation for the magic, 'Fix'. Especially miraculous phone fixes. God sometimes intends a little gritting of the teeth and bearing up . He died on the Cross Himself. Grace is grace, not fairy Tinker Bell Exercise Discernment, not desperation
What a wonderful gift from God: washed in the mercy of Jesus! He is always close, but sometimes he opens a window into our hearts to let us experience the sweetness of His Love. Caritas in veritate!
