We are never closer to Christ than when we hang with Him on the bed of the Cross. The most touching scene I found from the visions of La Salette was the description of the Crucifix that hung from Our Lady's neck. It was alive and Jesus ,struggled dying , alive on the Cross. In my own spiritual life I do not struggle nowadays in the times when the shadow of the Cross falls upon me but in times when the Cross appears lifted. It is this that troubles me , the times when I do not feel the Cross upon my shoulder. May I always feel the weight of this blessed wooden cross.
I feel very abandoned by God and am also suffering with health issues. I really don't know what to do. I pray alot to Saint Faustina and Saint Therese for help. I hope God can lead me out of the darkness. Sometimes it feels like hoping against hope but I'll keep trying and persevering. I also pray the Rosary and divine mercy chaplet constantly. Mother Teresa said that sometimes we have to have blind faith and that we have to live by faith and not by sight.
Clearcreekmonks.org for CDs, or on YouTube anything by the monks of Fontgombault. Both of the Benedictine Congregation of Solesmes. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLTKptfSqligplEypaYZz3c4L8h8gdYvCg&si=7yNv7g3zHFx6v32h
I'm in a very dark place at the moment and finding things very difficult. I feel abandoned by God. I experience horrible mental and spiritual attacks. I wonder is it because of my past but I have been to confession regularly all the time. A few weeks ago there was a reading at Mass that suffering is "training" and "it doesn't feel nice at the time " but in time it bears fruit.
I'm so sorry for your sufferings. I'm right there suffering with you, just differently. It's so hard, I pray for all those suffering immensely. May God give us His supernatural strength to endure & supernatural comfort. This will all end soon.
I often think that if the devil can't tempt us with mortal sin he goes after our mind, gives us crazy anxiety etc. Confession aggrivates the devil. As well as lots of prayer. It's this cycle of spiritual warfare since the devil loves to come at us always. He wants us not to believe in God & commit evil. It can get really tiring fighting the devil all the time, he hates us.
He's a lay exorcist, could be worth a visit. Works in Kilkenny city. Usually booked 2 months in advance but you might get a cancellation. I have his secretary's number if you send me a DM.
Health issues also affect us mentally & can cause mental health issues. I read that inflammation in the body can cause anxiety, I feel like anything in the body can really. You are in my prayers & I'll offer you & your intentions up at the next Anointing of the Sick Mass I go to. You probably already go to those Masses? Have you got a St Dymphna relic? I've been meaning to get one for ages now. I'm going thru perimenopause & it's affecting me mentally & physically so I really understand your pain. It's not easy, at all.
