Grimisocks, Stay faithful in your 3pm prayers. I will hold you up in mine. Your disappointment is real and your future cloudy. But God has a plan and will not fail you. Think of the constancy of PotatoSack here on the forum. We have been praying for some time with her for employment. I love Lee's image of God wanting to be overcome by you! Give Him your pain and dejected spirit. He will never abandon you and one day you will marvel at His genorosity! LOL! Safe in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary!
If I had a dollar for all the "we regret to inform you" letters and emails I have received in the last 3-4 years, well, IT would pay a bill anyway. All the novenas, all the prayers of others, all the retreats and pleading I have done...all the false hopes and paths that looked right but never worked out...I feel your pain, grimisocks. I am there too. But we can't give up on God, and we can't give up on our own role in our joyful future. If I have learned anything through all this, it is that. My aunt left me some money. It has been sustaining me. It is running out which greatly saddens me because it seems irresponsible that I spent it all. But it came when I needed it and it is still here, and I still need it, so apparently it wasn't meant to be put away for my retirement. I have not been able to get decent job in a very long time. One failure after another. BUT they have led me somewhere. Same as you, if someone had told me I would be where i am today in my faith, I may have laughted at them years ago. But here I am. Slowly working on helping others too. If I weren't unemployed, I would not have been able to just spend 11 carefree days withmy new grandson, or have been able to drive down there every month for 3-4 days over the last year to see my other grandson. I would never have even considered substitute teaching. It is not paying the bills, but it is a good job for my soul. Now I am possibly going back to school to become a real teacher, if all goes right. That will exhaust all the money...there will be nothing left. It seems like God is orchestrating this...and giving me many graces and many opportunities to grow and to help my family in the process. Maybe there is a child out there that I am supposed to meet at school one day. I am very worried about our future financially, but God is slowly teaching me not to be so stressed out over it. He puts in my path things like my grandson, and a lovely garden, and two amazing kitties that I have been able to spend a lot of time with...and so on and so on. He's teaching me to slow down, I think. I don't know really, but you weren't meant to get this job. Something else is in store for you. I am sure of it. Maybe he isn't done with your conversion time yet. That is all I could think of when over and over those rejection letters kept coming. Now I have given up on my old career. To let go, and let God, is Very Very hard.
I actually looked up this old thread of mine to remind me of the encouraging words from members who replied to my prayer request. Because I'm filling out another job application form. I've come across the dreaded question: Have you, at any time, been removed from a position? In my desperation, it is very easy to say no. But we all know the real answer, don't we? More importantly, He knows the appropriate answer to this. I'm going to trust, I'm going to be a 'fool for love', His love because, this goes against perceived wisdom and intelligence, that one would destroy a chance of employment by giving negative information. But....God's will be done.
a very big step you are taking in trust grimi! that's called forward progress in your conversion, faith, and trust in God. I'm very happy for you!! I did a similar thing recently, meaning I did something that was completely against common sense and handled a situation in the opposite way I would have in the past. My dad went into the hospital in mid-July and was there 5 weeks until he passed. My mom does not drive into the city, and my local siblings were on long vacations or committed to house projects. It became clear that the only way my mom would be able to see my dad was if I drove her in every day. I knew this would greatly hinder my job search, as my days off from my retail job were now spent in the hospital and the days I worked, I dropped my mom off before my shift, worked, and then picked her up after work. Not to mention, the entire time was an emotional roller coaster that I was living daily with my parents and I was not in any mental shape to impress any hiring manager if I could have managed to arrange a call for potential jobs. So, initially I had tremendous anxiety when I realized my siblings could not help out like I needed them to, and I would have to drop the job search even though I'm on a deadline to move out of my current living arrangement at the end of the month. I need a job asap to potentially stay in this area where I have a few activities I don't want to give up...specifically weekly adoration! But in thinking about it, I thought (and still think) that God's will was I drop what I needed to drop to support my parents. and I remember thinking, well, I think this is God's will for me and I just have to trust Him on the job. I don't regret it as I believe I saw my dad at his finest hour, carrying that cancer cross to the end without ever complaining. I think it was very glorious, although he looked awful and was suffering so much at the end...it was glorious in my eyes! so now I'm hoping and praying that a miraculous job comes my way, or a new living arrangement will emerge so I don't have to give up my weekly adoration with Jesus. I hope and trust but must admit my teeth are clenched as I do so!! So I don't meant to turn this post into something about me and not about you grimi, but our current journeys are so similar but I think we are on the right track with trusting more...even when it seems to go against what common sense says we should do...and you know that voice of doubt in the back of your head too, trying to convince you that it will be a disaster if we choose to stay on the tracks we are on. Trusting is so, so hard!!
Grimisocks, I will Pray for you. Yourself and PotatoSack, that both of you find jobs. I always understood that St. Edith Stein was great for employment matters.
I am going to pray to St Michael the Arc angel for you. I saw his statue on Michael Voris's desk the other day on a video. he has someho9w how stuck. Let us know how you get on. I have made a billion mistakes myself ..you have all my sympathy.
your situation grimi reminds me of something I heard at a catholic women's conference some years ago. the speaker was Jim Caviezel's wife Kerri Caviezel and she said something like...how can we expect God to perform a miracle if we are not willing to do the crazy sometimes.
Oh, I don't know....I have the application form minimised on my laptop since today. I can't seem to make the leap by giving the answer to that question. By giving the truthful answer, I won't get a sniff of an interview. There is no way anyone in their right mind would sanction me for interview based on me having been dismissed before. I'm going to leave it overnight. I'm going to try to make my peace with Jesus & Mary, repent for the lie I'm about to make. I'm a sinner, please don't judge me too harshly friends...
Please , Jesus I trust in you. It is all we are going to have. I will pray for you tonight and going forward.
let go of the steering wheel grimi I did last night,, Jesus is the professional driver we are the learners...
If it's the will of God Grimi, it won't pass you by. I visualize my resume going right into the waste basket every time I apply for a job, because of the long gap and being out of a real job for so long. The corporate world is very unforgiving, it is true, and given the economic conditions they can be choosy and find the exact right candidate without any perceived flaws. and it frustrates me as I've made mistakes in my job search. But I have to believe at some point God will put it in a person's heart to call me because it will be God's will that I get that job no matter the obstacles. You have to believe that too, and trust...even though it puts your stomach in knots
So, just to keep ye updated. In the end, I didn't apply for that job. I just felt that I'm not going to let other people know about my failings. i wasn't going to get called for interview if i did, so why run the risk of ruining my reputation. Limerick is a small city. For American forum members, Limerick is the size of a small American town. So, rumours get around quick. Also, I wanted to keep hold of the shred of integrity I possess these days. By not applying, where the compulsion to lie would be great, I'm being true to my faith. That's how I see it folks...
Hi Grimisocks, Just wanted to tell you that when my husband left, I needed to find a better paying job to maintain the 2 houses and all he left for me to handle. I applied for a few, but got rejected. I was hurt but later found out that employer was awful, and it was a good thing I didn't get that one job I wanted. I stopped applying, and told the Lord to "put the job in my lap". He DID! I got a wonderful job with great benefits offered to me within the month, and I am still here 15 years later! So just remember, God is very rich, and He can keep His servants well , and don't lose hope! He wont let you down!
Hang in there! I pray for you and potatosack every day by name. Hopefully we won't have to wait much longer for all of our prayers to be answered and we'll be living in a new peaceful era. God Bless!
This discussion brings up some interesting thoughts for me. First when one commits a felony or misdemeanor here in the US after time they are off our record or we can work the legal system to get them off our record. Technically one committed the offense so how would one handle this on a resume or interview going forward since they are off one's record but they still did the crime? Thankfully I have not had this happen to me but know of others who have. Second one of my biggest struggles is the lies of convenience as I call them. Yesterday is a good example of this. I just knew that I needed to go to church close to my work. They do adoration on Wednesdays and have 9 am mass followed by confession and adoration. I really wanted to be there so put on my calendar that I had a meeting which technically I did...with the Lord. My boss on Tuesday afternoon asked why I was not going to be present for a 10 minute conference call during this time. I told him I had a meeting opportunity which was a lie of convenience. I felt terrible after this. I confessed to it the next day in confessional and the priest did not comment about that sin and focussed on my others. These little lies are tough to overcome for me and are a constant battle. I realized after this that maybe I should have been truthful to my boss regardless. Maybe that truth would have inspired something in his own soul but I did not want to run the risk of being reprimanded here at work and also did not want to miss confession and adoration because I had a very special intention for adoration that I needed to do this week and wanted to go into adoration after confession and with a clean soul.
Maybe i can help you in my experience Grimi socks, about 5 years ago i lived with my mother due to financial reasons and i had just left a 5 year abusive relationship, so i was down in my luck with no job. after living with my mother for 3 days, i decided i had enough. I cried for 3 nights straight and i was angry with God because no matter how hard i tried to make my relationship work and make a good life for my kiddos, He was a stubborn man and i would pray to God to change him, but he never did. So my anger went to God, and in my pain and fraustration he heard me. On the third night of living with my MOther, i was in bed while everyone slept and i cried with so much pain and i felt a hand go inside my chest and pulled something out. i did not see anyone in my room, nor did i hear anything unusual. I sat up in bed and the pain was gone, i touched my chest and wondered what happened, i then asked myself, why i was crying. Then that morining i went to church and i gave my life to God. I told him, no one wanted me and i was tired of this life and i told him i did not want it anymore and well he took it. He made me better and life got better, then finally i got a home for my kids and a wonderful education, and his guidance is still there. My mother got sick and she was behind on her house payment and i did not have the money she needed, so i told her to ask God for help. She seemed fraustrated and kind of frausted with me, thinking how can God help so fast. So that day i went to church and i met a good friend of mine and he offered to lend me the money for the house payment but something in me still said, no. I thanked him anyways and i said this is something i need to ask God for. So i bought 4 candles and as i prayed and light them in church, i felt someone put their arms around me, even though i was the only one in church. It felt comforting, and i believed that my heavenly parents heard me. Then we got a call a few days later from the company that owned the house and they told my mother that they will erase the dept and even lower her house payments, how my mother cried. Let me tell you, i was scared but i trusted, that's all it took, a little faith. thats all you need, trust me.
