Let me ask you a simple question Padraig. Your finger is pointing at me. Are there any pointing back? Are there words sticking to them? Occasionally I have stood up for myself here in the face of horrendous abuse and bullying. No longer. Now I trust in Higher Powers. Mary of the evening, Pray for me throughout the night, Stay with me til morning's light. St Michael and my Guardian angel be at my side. If God wants me to stay I will stay. If He wants me to go I will go. What you want matters little. What God wants is all that matters. I am convinced that right now I am meant to be here. That may change tomorrow. It may be best for me to be far from here. God knows what is best for me. God always wants what is best for me. You do what you want. That may be the same as what God wants. For your sake I hope you do not go against God's will. Take note Padraig Caughey, Christmas or not you are still subject to the will of God. I pray that you see and hear what God wants. That is the best prayer I can make for you.