Hi my name is Amanda. I am suffering from severe Anxiety, PTSD and Depression. On Friday, June 02 I voluntarily went to the psychiatric unit of the hospital while having a flashback. This decision was one of the worst experiences that ever happened to me in my life. The psychiatrist put me on a form meaning I wasn't allowed to leave and said he "didn't really believe in anxiety disorders" and that I should be off all my medications immediately. I have been on Paxil 40 mg for 17 years, Cymbalta 60 mg for 6 years and Clonazepam 0.75 mg for 6 years also. I tried to tell him my concerns, but he didn't hear me I guess. That started off a week and a half of horror. My "withdrawal" didn't go as planned and I had a nervous breakdown while still trapped under his care. Yesterday I was finally able to leave and I believe many prayers from others and myself to St. Dymphna was the reason I was able to leave. Right now I have restarted the Clonazepam, unfortunately needing more than before this traumatic experience, but I am still waiting on my outside psychiatrist to help me get back on my previous antidepressants because I don't know if it's safe to just start taking them fully again after a week and a half off of them. I have been praying for comfort and direction, but I am only now because of this incident returning to the faith. I had fallen away and even said and did some terrible things regarding religion. I can't believe how quickly this has brought me to my knees in desperation and humility. I am trying to be good again, but I am afraid the sins I have committed and my belief that I could live without God, has made my prayers ineffective. I beg you please to help me pray for renewed faith as well as healing and comfort regarding all the physical symptoms I am suffering with right now, as well as the mental anguish of panic attacks, non stop anxiety and this horrible feeling and belief that I am dying or going to die from this traumatic experience taking a toll on my body. Thank you in advance for reading this and for your prayers and support. I honestly don't know what shape I would be in if it wasn't for everyone's prayers. I love you and appreciate you all!