The severity and the effects of the cross at the moment, for so many, is hard to express in words. I never thought it could feel so utterly stripping, personally I am constantly asking Our Lady and Our Lord for relief. I have a grief that I actually feel in my stomach and a physical weakness that I know is a spiritual manifestation and not a physical ailment, as the Lord has prepared me for this in the past and I believe I know the difference, still it is hard to understand why these crosses are so heavy, however He is giving me and hopefully all of us strength to stand and to withstand through His gift of prayer that He bestowed to mankind as our powerful weapon and our shield! I fear..............No that is not correct. I know!....... I will fall if I do not pray continuously. What I am taking from this experience now is to know that in the near future I am not to Judge what I consider to be right or wrong but only to stay in the arms of the mother church! When and if a schism manifests as a full blown confusing Mess in the Church, where we the ordinary Catholic faithful are expected to be able to decipher who is telling truths and who has ulterior motives as many may seem to be on the side of truth but very well may innocently be decieved themselves! Our only recourse is to look at Christ on the Cross and weep and offer our small pains to Him. It is good to remember that the evil ones lies can not only be dressed in truths but he has the cunning to use the very words of God Himself which are spoken in the prophesys approved by the Church that many of us believe and satan even uses Gods Holy words in scripture......... to decieve! For forty days Jesus fasted and prayed in the wilderness and when satan tempted Our Lord, satan didn't use lies! satan used scripture! the very words of God Himself! to tempt Christ. What to do? Fast and Pray! Jesus said you are not to prepare your defence for the Holy Spirit will speak for you. Lord Have Mercy on us! Christ Have Mercy on us! Lord Have Mercy on us and Hear Our Prayer. Mary Mother of Mercy, Pray for us and hide us all under Thy Holy mantle. Amen.