In prayer recently I apologized sincerely to God for the number of times I have fallen, so, so many it is embarrassing and I will be embarrassed to face God on judgement day because of this. Thank God Jesus said we would be forgiven 70 times 7 in other words an infinite number of times. Anyway the response was not what I was expecting - for He told me He loved me more each time I got up for I never give up and always keep persevering. God has a father's heart and an enormous capacity to love us in our brokenness. Talk about turning a negative into a positive. Thank you God!