I worked right through Christmas and was really looking forward to 11 Days off which I promised myself I would give to prayer. I'm coming to the end of them now and love to look back on them; thinking that the bottom line is ; did I learn anything, did they do any good, was I faithful in prayer. Well they centred around the Latin Liturgy in my New Old Rite Parish. I struggle with the Old Mass. I read Pope St Pius x saying the lay person should try to follow what is going on. I have bought two breviaries. I downloaded a Latin Mass App (IMiss). I tried to do a Holy Hour before each mass. What did I find? Well the first thing is the Church was so quiet! You Could have heard a pin drop. So quiet it was actually unnerving. Even on Sundays when the Church is pretty full not a single person speaking. Amazing. Can I follow the Liturgy? Well better and better. I love the gorgeous vestments and the incense. The Homilies I would say 5 out of ten; pretty stilted. I love a story and a joke. Fulton Sheen would be my ideal. Apart from the Church, the forum went down and this kind of lost me for the first week. Am I any closer to God at the end of the time? Well so many things are happening all around us it can be so distracting. Al lI can say is I tried. Catholic Life is so often step by step. Nothing usually dramatic. Step by step. I'm really, really saddened by the Mass Apostasy around me. Especially in Rome and the Higher Clergy. Its like my family got up and left me. Sigh . This has a huge dulling effect. It really has. I picked up one good thing from Our Lady which is a big help. She warns about worrying too much about things. She says it distracts from prayer. That when we are looking too much about bad things going on we are not looking at her. So at least I learnt something. The Holy Hours went so quick. With them and the mass and prayers after mass. Maybe two hours twenty minutes in Church on Sunday. But it passes pretty quick.